only god knows

god .. what you have planned .. I'm tired of all this, I'm tired of lying I'm feeling this .. what should I do??.god .. until when he was like this to me?What is the name of love? must be willing to wait to uncertainty, and not considered ..why should he do this, why should I care about people who would like this to me, I feel this is all unfair, but I hope all of which are destined to affect good and beautiful.I know, I can not have him completely but please god give me a chance and give me some time to be happy, although we will never have a bond may be serious.